I’ve spent much of my adult life working towards a dream—a writing dream, infused with climbing—that has largely come true.
Which means me of the Greg Brown line, “If your dream came true, would you want it then?”
I had no idea what would come along with my dream coming true. My dream coming true, hasn’t come along with large amounts of money or fame; though close to home I am often recognized at the crag or out and about in Durango.
But my dream to be a writer, has mostly come true. It came true when I started The Climbing Zine, because I teamed up with other writers, and created something beloved for our community.
Now I’m in that awkward stage of owning a business where I have more work than time to do said work; and I don’t have finances just yet to hire an employee. I’m constantly ignoring 20 emails, while 20 people are ignoring my emails. The whole outdoor industry seems to be behind as we start 2022.
I started out writing in the late nineties; writing on napkins if I had to. The only real outlets were newspapers and magazines.
Now as a writer and publisher the options are both empowering and overwhelming. Do I have time in my day to keep up with my two websites, my email, my podcast, Instagram, LinkedIn, Patreon, Facebook, Twitter, Tik Tok, YouTube, and whatever else I forgot to include? The short answer is no.
Which begs another question: am I keeping up with my writing? My first love. The passion that brought me here today. The answer, is I’m trying.
Writing is like sex in a strange way; at least creative writing is. A lot of things have to come together (pun intended). There’s a million methods, techniques, and pieces of advice; but in the end as the artist (or lover) one develops their own sensibilities and needs. The blank page is both a canvas and a lover.
My dream is evolving, and I know I still want it. Most of all I know what I’m craving. Just as all humans want to be loved and embraced I miss seeing my work embraced by an audience, in real life, in real time. I realized long ago that’s why I’m here.
So I ask you, if your dream came true, would you want it then?